How ever deep you fall into the darkness your light stays with you

I was falling asleep and as I drifted off I suddenly felt like I was falling.... fast.

Ever deeper into a black abyss, my heart racing and this feeling of abject fear is what woke me up. Breathless and afraid I sat up and turned on the light by my bed.

What was that all about!

Why was I falling? I wasn’t aware of dreaming about anything frightening or feeling stressed when I was falling asleep. The falling into the abyss came out of nowhere.

Do I wish to go deeper into the shadowlands but resisting an impulse from my subconscious?

Is it symbolic of me feeling out of control?

Where I am in my life right now is of my own choosing – I chose to let go of many things, deliberately creating a VOID. In doing this I found certain people and situations ‘fell away’ in the process.

I wanted to embrace the unknown... and have found it a cold embrace, where the icy fingers of my fears hold me so tight I can barely breathe.

Yet as I trust that all is as it should be, I find I sink past the clutches of those icy fingers and into a deeper darkness where bliss exists.

In this void fear does not exist... thoughts do not exist.... I do not exist. All I feel is Oneness.

Feel the fear and surrender.... to what your light illuminates in your shadowlands. For it is your greater self.

To grow, to excel, to become all you can be – fall through the shadowlands into the void. Your teacher awaits you there.

This is the final scene of The Big Blue by Luc Besson and it is a beautiful expression of what surrendering into the void feels like for me.

Respectfully, Alison

Excerpt from ‘Is it me or is it dark in here? by Alison Day